Vulnerable. Having the “I need to save everyone” mentality is exhausting. Their problems are your problems and when you can’t help and have to watch them suffer it’s agonizing. You want to scream, cry, you lash out on the people around you. One song…word…look can set you off.
Oblivious at first, then the pain hits. A constant pit sits in your stomach caused by the unknowing of what they are thinking…feeling….doing. It’s so bad that you almost vomit. All thoughts are now consumed of this, but you can’t blame yourself.
Mind your business. Separate you from them. Take time apart. How? How can a human step away from another human who clearly needs help? What if something were to happen to them? Would you be able to forgive yourself?
If you’re mind goes to the worse situation and you now can’t stop but wonder if I stop reaching out….will they think I’m giving up on them? It’s normal and maybe they think that. People need space to figure it out. They also need a reminder every now and then that they aren’t alone.
The truth is you can’t save everyone, especially the ones who don’t want to be. You can only do so much before they a) push you away or b) give in and confide in you. Even after all that you aren’t them. You can’t understand what they are going through. You can only be there when they need you to be. For those who are going through that hard time, please know you aren’t alone. There is always someone who is worried about you and wants nothing but the best for you. Never feel ashamed to talk to somebody about whatever is on your mind because in the end that makes the difference.